Monday, December 22, 2014

ENDINGS AND BEGINNINGS


  Once again, we have reached that time of year when we tend to re-evaluate our lives, or, "clean out our closets" as I like to say. It's a good time to reflect and decide what is or isn't working, and who contributes to and enriches our lives, and who no longer serves a purpose. Many of you had a wonderful year... lots of success, new relationships, new homes, new jobs or careers, reunions, etc..all these things which will hold some of the most cherished memories for years to come. Others may have suffered loss of loved ones,  broken hearts, job loss, health issues, etc., and may be very anxious to begin a new year hoping it will be better than the last. Some of my closest friends have suffered tremendous loss this year, and my heart goes out to them for a God speed healing.

  I myself am in a good place in my life. I've come to terms with many things, and am learning to accept. This has always been a challenge for me, and is something that still needs work, but I'm getting there. I've also come to know, and love myself more than I ever have, and it has led to a true  awakening. I still don't have all the answers, some I don't care to find out anymore, where as others, I still hope to...some day. I formed many new bonds with some amazing, interesting. and eclectic people, and maintained strong ties with older friends, and for this, I am extremely grateful.

  I tend to miss people this time of year so much, that it hurts my soul. From deceased loved ones and friends, to those that I have lost touch with, or drifted apart from, to old loves that were once a huge part of my life, even when they weren't. However, as sad as I may get, I try to focus on the good, like the fact that I woke up this morning, I'm healthy, and I have so much love around me, and of course, I'm grateful to have God in my life.

  My wish for everyone, no matter what you believe in, is that you always have faith that things will get better, that there are good things waiting for you, and  always, always, believe in yourself. If you have faith in nothing, and no one, have faith in yourself!!

  As you embark on your new journey in the year to come, I wish you all love, light, peace, joy, happiness, prosperity, and everyday miracles.

  Merry Christmas!!
  Happy New Year!!

With love,

 Teresa

Saturday, December 6, 2014

DECEMBER



Thinking of an old December love..

The smell of December floods my mind with waves of memories. Memories of a shiny new love affair, and my once imagined bliss. Cold cheeks and warm lips, entangled in each other till the dim winter sun  softly shines. Splendid thoughts of him enter my mind...his touch, his smile, his words, his musky scent mixed with cigarettes. His mere prescence made me feel as light as a feather. But some things are too good to be true. The cruel harshness of reality set in as quick as it all began. Unpleasant discoveries forced me to pick up the pieces of my broken, shattered heart.  Beautiful December, sweet December, cold December, magical December, grim December, lonely December...
Alas I am free..free from the prison that love's wrath bestowed upon me, and I wait patiently for love to find me once again, even if only for one last time.